The first step

January's coming near.. December's ending...
One month will go... and another will come..

DECEMBER 2008

Just when i thought that there wouldn't be anymore changes during the year. I made a change.
A change of heart. A change of plans. A change of direction.

The plans i set my mind to a few months ago seem irrelevant. While I was standing in front of the plenary in MyLDS 2008, I looked around and thought.. All this seem so amazing.. it seems so wonderful and so close to my dear heart. This organization all of us are in.

I decided to run for the National Committee.. The AIESEC Malaysia Member Committee 2009/2010. I felt a pang of guilt when those thoughts crossed my mind at first. I was so certain of my plans at first. Everybody thought that I would be sticking to it and I have no intention of doing otherwise. Then the time came, I don't know what gotten into me, (maybe the hours time persuading people to run for MC during MyLDS) I decided to run. But to run for elections I have to have a new plan!! After thinking really hard, I decided that going for my internship in January would be the best way possible. So I scrambled high and low, make use of whatever network that I have and found a place in Puchong. Well I wouldn't say it's the best thing that could happen to me but considering I was desperate I took it up anyway.

Then I submitted my application, but not after I spent time thinking over and over and over again. The times spent talking to Lia especially, she listened to me over and over again.

"Should I run for elections?" Should I? or should I not?

I submitted my application. So no turning back. Looking at the candidates. Well I was excited!! I felt like I was sky diving without any parachute!! Zooming down towards mother earth!! I'm glad that Boey decided to run at the last second :) What an amazing team it will be next year.

It's gonna be a tough ride. A tough journey ahead. I'm confident, but at this point of time I'm too confident. And that's a bad thing. I won't be preparing my speech just yet. But i hope i will. I plan to make an impact. Either by making a fool out of myself or the other way around I don't give a damn. I will make an impact. and that's a promise ;)

Another chapter

Member Committee AIESEC Malaysia 2009/2010 here i come :)

Broken

I broke a lot of things lately..

Maybe its better off this way..

though i yearn for it not to..

Year 3 :)

It was slightly more than 3 years ago that we became an item. I didn't know why i said yes in the first place Lia because i hardly even know you that time but looking at how things are right now i have no regrets at all. The times we've spent, the moments together, light happy moments, miserable draggy moments, it doesn't really matter even if we go through bad times together because at the end of the day we always cherish our times together and that is what matters the most to me hun. Happy third year anniversary Lil Lia. We spent our 1st in NLDS, our 2nd in MNC, and our 3rd... well it was kinda like in the break between MNC during Raya Haji. Days become only figures. Figures that adds on in time. And those figures become testament to my loyalty towards you. Love you lia!! *hugs*

From NLDS to MyLDS

It started 2 years ago in USM.. I was a chief delegate for LCUM.. I was also a first year student in a local Universiti. Coming from a missionary school with a class so full of other races i wasn't my true self when i went into Universiti. It transformed me into becoming a reserved person. Someone totally not me.

Then i found AIESEC. I saw ruben one day at the RD stall and i thought hey why not join it. It's not like i have anything better to do anyway :) and so i did. But still, i have no idea what it truly is about. I didn't even know that AIESEC offers Xchange at first. I joined because i had nothing better to do and because Lia was there as well heheh

I wasn't that active for awhile. Attended a few episodes and that's it. Of course then i joined Xcapade in PD. It brought me closer to AIESEC in a way and i joined a project right after called Window to the World(WTTW). The same goes to this project. I wanted to be involved but at the same time i didn't find that passion.. that thing that strives me to doing more.. and so i did my part for the sake of doing it. While in the midst of the project, an oppurtunity came by in the form of NLDS 2006.

In December 2006, i was selected to become the chief delegate for LCUM. I remembered one day when i was actually still contemplating whether or not to attend NLDS 06 when suddenly i got a phone call from Terence (LCP 06/07). He congratulated me saying that i was chosen as a chief delegate. I was speechless. I have no idea what i got myself into and at the same time i felt responsible. I mean.. Somebody actually noticed you and gave you this oppurtunity to be a chief delegate. Who cares what it was back then, its a 'chief' of something!! Being a CD was an eye opener. I did not notice it at first but throughout NLDS i realised a change in me. A change that i never saw coming. A change that made me who i am right here today.

Recently i just came back from MyLDS08 in UPM. My 3rd NLDS. I went as an LCP. Totally different experiences. But none less fulfilling. I had choices to make, decisions that would affect the whole AIESEC Malaysia community. I am in charge of AIESEC in UM. But at the same time i need to earn each n everyone of their respect. Because without them i would not be here. Life gives you oppurtunities all the time. I found mine in the form of AIESEC. Thank you for that. And may this conference be not my last. Nor may this experience be not my best. Because i believe the best has yet to come ;)

That thing called life

Arghhh stress!! Last week was crazy!! Had a full 4 days of AIESEC Experience!! :p Went to the MCs office on tuesday to review the Compendium and the following 3 days i was with the Presidents n MCs for TCM2! Heck it aws tiring but it was definitely worth the time spent :)

As soon as i got back my mom told me to pack up coz the whole family's going balik kampung and it just slipped my mind!! I packed and left the next morning to Melaka first for little tini's cukur rambut ceremony :) my cousin's baby growing edy heheh

Next head to Batu Pahat and for the whole 2 days i was there i was stuffed with food, food n a lot of food!! Simplicity at its best :) Now i'm back!! With pre-MyLDS only a day away and i havent really prepared my stuff yet!!

Yikes!! Now i wish for more AIESEC time to prepare my AIESEC stuff!! And heck Legislation clashes with RAYA HAJI!! WTH!!!

Stubborn me ;)

It feels like the exam period all over again! With tons of work to do but so so so freaking lazy! A lot of things to be completed. datelines to be met but yet so so lazy! Well have you eaten something really really tough? (tough as in really chewy til the point it becomes inedible?) I feel like that right now. Well in a way i think of myself as that piece of meat heheh Being so freaking stubborn and not giving up but at the same time not knowing why on earth is it being so tangy and tough! I feel like i'm never gonna give up! That's for sure. But at the same time i'm not doing anything to help the situation. Never giving up is one thing. That's just being stubborn i guess. Well i am stubborn. Most of the time i won't admit defeat even when the whole roof is collapsing on to me. Even now at this point of time, i won't give up.. And i'll start doing something instead to prove that i'm not giving up. Instead of just saying i wont give up. I'll actually try to do things instead!! Well i know its how it should be done in the first place but rambling everything out blogging aimlessly about sometimes helps me realise things :)

When all else fails

When all else fails,
Rise up and persevere,
Do that thing you just did,
If that's the best you can do,
Then try harder, reinvent those ways,
Try new things, do it differently,
Just make sure with every single step you make,
you know you're trying, and you know you're getting there.
Persevere!!

Because exams are over

Exams are over!! Woohooo!! Monday after my paper i straight went for a movie! Madagascar2 hahah well not really a first choice for me but hey anything goes cause you know why? Exams are over!! Then at night i had an EB Meet with my dearest EBs and you know why?? Because exams are over!! After the EB meet we went to grab some err supper and sent FC back home and talked in the car and do weird crazy things and you know why?? Because exams are over! Then me, lia, may yee n melvin went to the lookout point and stayed there until the early mornings and you know why?? Because exams are over!!

Then on tuesday met up with UM's Chief delegate and his assistant and then me n lia went to Bukit Bintang to shop with no money!! ahahaha and you know why?? Because exams are over!! Yesterday went for a farewell lunch for Ming Ching and Kent Heng because they are leaving for their internship in Taiwan (Sadly it's not under AIESEC though).

And today later in the afternoon i'll be meeting up with James for some AIESEC stuff. And you wanna know why?? Because I'm an AIESECer ;)

Precious waiting :)

TWO more hours until my last paper of the semester

FOUR hours until its over :)

48 hours

Approximately 48 more dreadful hours.. The last exam paper.. Its so close.. Yet so dreadful..

I'm trying my best to studythis freaking subject but i just cant! My body is already in Holiday Mood! Full Speed ahead! Woohhoooo Study?? What study?? Exams are nothing!! Holidays coming!!


K let the part of me who's worried take over me once again... Well i screwed up my previous paper... Sitting in the exam hall looking at the freaking paper wondering how can i possibly scavage some marks over here when i know next to nothing about it?? Hahah plus counting on all the carry marks and estimating the marks i'll get for the amount of crap i wrote.. Well li fah said she thinks she's crazy for calculating all those when in fact she's suppose to be answering the questions.. Well you're not... Coz there are people out there who does that... and I am one of them as well :)


So right now.. at this point of time... I have my book on my left.. My notes on my right... My lecturer's slides just a click away.. but i'm blogging.. and wasting my time... Not doing what i'm suppose to be doing... and why not?? I have no clue..

Bad Vibes??

I'm getting bad vibes from studying this Mechanical Vibration subject!!



Getting vibes from studying freaking vibration! I'm about to go crazy studying this stuff!!

Serves me right for studying last minute though...
as usual.



And the worse part of it is that i rarely touched the subject throughout the whole semester.

So now i'm left with approximately 28hours to cram all those vibration stuff into my tiny little brain. (When i say tiny i'm not refering to my size as a whole but more to the brain in general when compared to other parts of the body thank you).

Failing is ok since i'm already planning to extend my studies for a year to do my internship.
Well its OK but its NOT AN OPTION!!

Wish me luck! Pray for me! Do whatever you normally do when your friends are sitting for an exam. Gotta bury myself into my notes now.

:)

Hijau - Zainal Abidin

Hijau by Zainal Abidin

Bumi yang tiada rimba, Seumpama hamba,

Dia dicemar manusia, Yang jahil ketawa

Bumi yang tiada udara, Bagai tiada nyawa,

Pasti hilang suatu hari, Tanpa disedari

Bumi tanpa lautan, Akan kehausan,

Pasti lambat laun hilang, Duniaku yang malang

Dewasa ini kita saling merayakan, Kejayaan yang akhirnya membinasakan

Apalah gunanya kematangan fikiran

Bila di jiwa kita masih lagi muda, Dan mentah... Ku lihat hijau

Bumiku yang kian pudar, Siapa yang melihat,

Di kala kita tersedar, Mungkinkah terlewat

Korupsi,opresi,obsesi diri.. Polusi,depressi,di bumi,kini

Oh..anok-anok, tokleh meghaso mandi laok, Besaing,maing ghama-ghama

Ale lo ni tuo umurnyo bejuto.. Kito usoho, Jauhke dari malapetako

Ozon lo ni koho nipih nak nak aghi, Keno make asak,Hok biso wei,pasa maknusio

Seghemo bendo-bendo di dunio.. Tokleh tehe.. Sapa bilo-bilo

Easy going song, environmental, human ignorance, reminds me of the NOW we're in...

At times like this

At times like this,
should i bask under the light,
let it tingle my senses,
or hide in the shadows,
under the tree.. in the field.

should i feel the grass underneath my feet,
those soft green things,
blanketing the dirt below,
turning brown to green,
nature at it's best.

At times like this,
we shall rejoice,
hand in hand, side by side,
we will, stride by stride,
rejoice.. we will.. rejoice

For how long can we keep saying,
"At times like this"
For time has its ways,
of making small instances seem crucial,
undeniably,
it has its ways,
at times like this


falconaire :)

Quote

"One thing you learn in science is that there are no perfect answer, no perfect measure"


taken from the book Mechanical Measurements Prentice Hall.

:)

Hari Raya and Exams

Last weekend was great! 40 friends came for my open house! Well definitely a lot of people but it worth while. Dissapointed with those who promised to come but did not though hmph. It was also the first time my kepochi cousins and aunts saw lia and boy what a commotion it was teheheh. They didn't actually talk much with her, heck they barely spoke but they were like pointing n smirking giving her that smile that says 'so you're about to join the family eh'

Had loads of food during that day but unfortunately i didn't had the chance to indulge myself in all of them!! That was my biggest regret! Only being able to eat a few sticks of satay, busy BBQ-ing the chicken pieces but in fact i havent even tasted it! At the end of the day i realised just how multiracial my family is. Having a chinese mom and a malay dad. During that day when i realised there are all kinds of people it just made me feel so.... Malaysian :) and that is a fact! no other country in the world have this kind of thing... anyway i well hope to think that way heheh

and now exams are coming!! the whole week has been projects, lab reports, assignements!!
i have 2 weeks to study right now! better make the best out of it!!

:)

Open House

My raya open house is tomorrow!! :p

A new skill mastered

I've learned a new skill! A new art form i found on my very own!

The art of gathering and making sure that all the problems that you have get tucked into that dark corner at the back of your mind! Well i don't want it to disappear totally but i don't want it to keep bugging me either. So i chucked it way back and ignored it most of the time subconsciously knowing that it's still there and not letting it affect me in any way.

It reminded me of a movie i watched way back. it says :
Take 5 minutes to mope and cry all you want and then stop and move on with life.

It doesn't matter whether u take 5 minutes or 5 days to mope and sulk about something that has already happened because at the end of the day.. It's OVER! So just pick your self up and move on with live. Do something... well anything! just don't mope ;)

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri :)

Hari Raya Aidilfitri came once again. Being born and raised in the city I envy those people having a kampung to go back too. That thrill of going back to the little kampung visiting atuk and nenek on Hari Raya. Sadly i've lost both grandparents both my mom's n dad's side.

Even when ah-ma was still up and running i remember 'balik kampung' everytime Chinese New Year came but the thing about my kampung is that it's in the middle of town! Batu Pahat town to be exact and my ahma's house is right in front of a main road!! I envy people having a real life village kampung to go back to every festive season. I want a kampung to go back to! Preferably one in the middle of no where and even better if its a wooden house on stilts by the beach!!

Hahah so that's just a city boy's little dream(gasp i'm still refering to myself as a boy even though i know i shouldn't be one anymore =P). The only chance of me being together with nature is probably during camping trips back in the schooling days monkeying around. Together with a group of young, crazy and fully packed with hormones bunchof 10th KL Airscout guys!! I wish to do it again someday. Camping somewhere... anywhere actually... Just being one with nature :)

I will someday. All i need is the time, the company, a place and most importantly the WILL to actually do it! One day.. you'll see me carrying my backpack gearing up for a camping trip somewhere. Just you wait guys!

Well anyway raya passed by just like that and while sitting at home in this empty city i realised what i've never experienced as something i really find hard to grasp. That feeling of balik kampung. But hey i have my family around me. Be it my mom, dad or annoying brother. Or the aunts and uncles with other crazy cousins all in KL here nearby. I celebrated Raya with our own family tradition. Something different and yet so similar. Because its not about where. It's about who you're with and how pure your feelings are.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri.
Maaf Zahir Batin

from the humble me. Alif

The thing to do

Knowing what needs done
versus..
Doing what needs done


Will you know what needs to be done and do it
Or do you pretend to know what needs doing?


Well i guess it depends...

i spent most of my life doing 'things'
Things i enjoyed... hated... shameful things... unecessary things etc

But what about things that you do because you have to? the things that others expect you to do and you know you have to comply.


The question playing in my mind right now is....

Is that the only choice i have?

are the consequences fatal to me?

or are the consequences fatal to them instead?

what do i get in return?

happiness of doing something i don't enjoy doing?

or knowing that all that i hate doing is actually, technically and well deservedly the right thing to do?

Thoughts of an LCP - post IC

It's been awhile since i've posted up an entry. Well one of the reasons was i was in Brazil a couple of weeks back for International Congress 2008(IC08). I spent 3 amazing weeks on a foreign land surrounded by people from more than 106 countries and not to mention spending a whole bucket full of cash. Why 106 countries?? That's because in AIESEC we are officially in 106 countries(not including the expansion countries).

It's hard to describe the experience. In fact i don't know how to describe it. IC08 to me wasn't that great of a conference. To tell you the truth, while during the conference i was measuring the impact IC08 has on me and i personally think Xcapade and Malaysian conferences gave me more impact. The funny thing is, I only started to feel the impact a few weeks after IC08. I wouldn't say that its a huge impact but it definitely was something. :) Being in a room with over 600 people and making friends from a different continent with totally opposite cultures. That's the diversity that the AIESEC network offers.

I had an opportunity... i grabbed it... and I'm satisfied with it

OR you could say it this way..

I worked hard in what i do and oppurtunity found me instead

The reason for this is.. opportunities do not come just like that. You are your opportunity. You need to lift your ass and do something before you get an opportunity. Create your opportunity and it will come. :)


Right now I'm burrowing myself into assignments and projects which i know nuts about. 2 weeks skipping classes. Is it worth all the trouble?? Yes it definitely was worth all the trouble :)

RD - The end of a beginning

The end of the beginning, well after so much of hardwork and commitment it finally paid off. With over newbies attended MIA and over 50 people who attended Breakthrough it actually paid off. Wasn't convinced with myself that the team could pull it off but at the end of the day. The statistics prove it all. Being my 3rd year in AIESEC sometimes i think i wish too much. Wanting everyone and everything else to be perfect. Forgetting what AIESEC is all about. The learning. The mistakes. and the learning from the mistakes. All this moulds a person into someone better. Someone somewhat more experience and thus making it a lifelong journey of unforgettable learning. I'm learning and hopefully i'll pick it up fast. Hey life is short so i better get as much out of it.

Thank you EBs, Management Team, Rene's team, MCs, other LCs and Ben Ong our alumni. You made me realise the reality i am in right now. And i'm sure you've touched the likes of others as well with the short little chat you've had with us. I hope to inspire that day. but aspired was what i brought home. and for that i thank you all.

Moody moody me

I don't know what i'm feeling right now.
Classes are starting, am really looking forward to it.
But something just doesn't seem quite right.
AIESEC is giving me the usual headaches but nothing i can't handle so far.
GE as usual with that freaking snake in charge giving the usual crap.
Whole load of twist and turn from a freaking multinational company shit.

Well obviously i'm in a not so good mood right now.
Just need someone to talk to.
But nobody seem able
Nobody willing, heck even i'm not willing.. to share what i want but will not
Not when i'm feeling like crap and everybody else thinks i'm alright.
Can't blame them though.
I always look alright.. even when i'm not
Cause a smile is what i put on me most of the time.

The Waiting

Well grades are out. But not the finalise gradings. Stagnant is what i see.
But from where I see myself right now 5 months back. I won't complain :)
my aim was to maintain my results. maintaining or improve.
Studies aside i've had my share of ups and downs the past one year.



Well if it doesn't kill you then why bother?

Just get up on my own two feet and keep up with life.


Fast paced... the life i've chosen... a student life... an AIESECers life.... an LCPs =)


I won't lie.. i will fret and complain... Its not easy being a leader of an amazing International Student Organisation called AIESEC. But its the path that i've chosen... And even though sometimes it seems like the whole world is upon my tiny shoulders... I know its a burden that would carry me throughout my life...



Overcoming it one by one... step by step and then finally... at the end of the day...

I'd be there looking back at what life was right now...

Reflecting on past mishaps and greater glories... well if i have any heheh



I'll go on... I'm nervous... and i'm scared...
yet i'm thrilled to live my life right now...
waiting for the coming semester to start...
Tackling through every given obstacles
together with an amazing team
greater individuals..
Hand in hand we'll find our way...
to get what we want..
in the nick of time

=)

State of mind

Busy busy busy!! With what?? Heck i don't know... Been quite some time since my last post but i'm finally here am I.

NPC finally over.. Planning starting to get intense... Change is evident... and Change will do us some good ;)


-A state of mind-

Life in the 21st century flies by us.
every second counts.
every milisecond important.
The tick of the clock followed by the tock.
reminding all that time waits for none

Taking one step at a time,
I'm occupied with all that i've asked for,
But not all that i've expected,
I'm sure along the way it is to be expected,
of all the things unexpected.

Time spent less for all the usual others,
while another something takes control over me,
but hey i forgot something.
It's me the one who decides,
the one who says what and where it shall be.

I am in control,
Not regarding time i suppose,
but hey i'm still in control,
i get to choose and choose i will,
and i choose to stay to fight for what's right ;)


-falconaire-


ps i wanted to write a post but instead it turned out to be a poem form hahah

Exam Season!

Exam season!

Well i'll be damned. Burrowing myself into books and notes each day. Well forcing myself actually. I believe that nobody in their right mind would actually want to spend the whole day studying! It's all about studies and AIESEC lately. But hey i'm not complaining about the AIESEC part ;p what i'm more worried of right now to tell you the truth is wether i could make it to IC 2008 in Brazil later in August. I know it's gonna be pricey. and hell yeah it's gonna be a lot to ask from my parents but i tried and i failed... for now at least =P I'm not giving up hope just yet. I'll beg on my hands and knees if i have to. Do chores for the rest of my life. Obey and listen to their demands! Commiting my very soul to their every need! . Well all that so taht i could go to IC heheh.

I had one paper on monday. Now tomorrow will be another paper. This semester i'm really hoping to better my results. Well we all wanna do better but i consider myself lucky in a way. I did not score high previously so every semester i scored a lil bit higher than previously and that's what keeps me going. Wanting to improve. Taking things one step at a time. And tellign myself that i could conquer all this cause lets face it people. It's all in the mind. If you wanna do it then just do it. Blank out everything that's i what you have to do. Hey it sounds better over here but believe me i'm not like that at all in real life ;) Foo Cheong has been with me every single day for the whole week. Studying in AIESEC office. Well I hope it works coz i gotta get higher grades man =p

Tribute or something like that

Well i ran for elections the other day and I passed the vote of confidence.

It's just the start of the beginning. Going through the Executive Boards Interviews. Selecting what's best for the team. Knowing each person's weaknesses and focusing more on their strength. Making sure everything goes well for the coming term.

People selection. Planning. and more planning. It's something i've taken up. The challenge that i want. The fire in me.. fueled by the passion i have for this one organisation. You've made me who i am today by letting me be myself. Improving within with my own pace. You did nothing much really. You just gave me a platform. A chance to grab. An oppurtunity.

I grab what you offered.. and look at me now... Am i different from what i was a few years back??

Well yes and no... I've learnt how to carry myself into this world unbidding... But I am still the boy who knows how to have fun. The mischievous misfit with a cheerful expression. The ME i was is still the ME i am... But the ME right now has strike the balance. To not just think but to act. To do great things a step at a time.

And for all that i thank you AIESEC.

Rhymes

Rhymes

I heard the bushes shake,
so i jumped up awake
a baton i did take
for my dear ol' safety's sake.

A cat ran underneath the bushes,
all i heard were silent hushes,
as the ground were damped with mushes,
to the sound of my feet in slushes.

I cursed the kitty in languages,
which i think took whole ages,
and sat, flipping through pages,
while the birds sat in its cages.

-falconaire-

Elections!!

Elections just ended!! But somehow another election is coming... and truth to tell it'll probably be a more life changing experience for me

Forget about prices of things going up,
Forget about better security for the nation,
Forget about prices of petrol going down, (Hey that's what they promised anyway)
Forget about who rules what and how.

Truth to tell i don't give a damn!!
Well not compared to
AIESEC UM ELECTIONS that is.
Most AIESECers would ask me the same old question... Are you running for EB?
and hey nowadays before they even ask me i would reply a definite hell yeah!!

Heheh it's not just the next step...
It's an oppurtunity to improve
An oppurtunity to touch lives
An oppurtunity to make an impact
An oppurtunity to be somebody
Make decisions... good ones and bad ones...
A learning experience
And most importantly.... an oppurtunity of a lifetime

So if u ask me why... the typical me would probably say "WHY NOT"
but deep down inside i still can't find the answer... It's just one of those things you jump upon without even thinking about... Like jumping headfirst into a pool of thick gooey jelly... not knowing what the heck i'm gonna get...

So I'm taking this big giant leap... taking up a responsibility only god knows how heavy...
I'm doing something with my life... are you??

Of true loves and players

Of true loves and players... Hey most of us out there are still in the midst of looking for the right one and in the midst of all this some of them get lovers instead... I just hate it when people have girlfriends but flirt all over the place... Well at least flirting is the least of the idiotic "i didn't realise what I was doing" crap that this kinda people normally do...

Yes I have guy friends who's with a special someone but do they bother making them the only one?? No they do not!! and I fucking despise all that shit!! Love cause you mean it god damn it!!

Sigh does the male community knows that this is happening to them?? Yes they know it but is anyone doing anything to stop it?? No!! They don't know how!! Heck even i don't know how to stop jerks from being jerks but hey at least i'm not one of them...

Imagine having a girlfriend far off but having other girlfriends nearby?? That's just plain ridiculous... hey i'd understand if they are just friends instead of 'just friends' but sometimes its gone way too far...

Everyone has the right to be loved but no one deserves to be torn apart from someone they love and whom they 'think' loves them back

Well if you have a special someone and you're cherishing every moment together, make sure it stays that way.
If you don't... well good luck to you my friend ;)

For Lia ;)

I need a mathematician to count the times i've said i love you,

a doctor to check wether you took my breathe away,

an economist to ponder on oppurtunity cost when i'm away from you,

a philosopher to really understand how much i love you.

~alif~

ps : it's not taken from a book :P

My car got stolen!!

The title is self explanatory!! I lost my freaking car on Chap Goh Meh!! Wtf man one minute its there and the next the whole damn thing is gone...



Well i went to take care of the AIESEC booth in Career Path at around 11am and i parked right in front of Dewan Tunku Canselor in University of Malaya. Then when i wanted to get my ass off to class around 1.50pm to submit my damn assignment i just couldn't find my car!! So i went to the guards to report this and then to the Jalan Pantai Police Station where they ask me to get my ass off to the Brickfields Headquarters... When all was done we went for our 'lunch' at 5pm. And I did all this with Goay and Lia's help. Not to mention Ruben who came along as well awhile later.



Thanks for being there for me people. Really appreciate all the help and the concern that you guys showed ;)



K now back to the story... After our 'lunch' in Pelita! Ruben was about to reach 6th college when Sarjan Dana called and said they found my car!! But without tyres and stuff like that. And yeah we had to make a huge turnabout and when we got there My car was there!! My tyres are gone,stereo, battery and most importantly my CD Collections!! Fuck all those CDs are memories.. Some are gifts from friends and stuff like that and each has a journey of its own... And not to mention it sums up to at least rm550! Sigh what to do... my family came along later and lia,ruben and goay left once they came...My parents went with the police officers to get new set of wheels... When all is done we went to the police station again to settle the paperwork...


Sigh all this doesnt even come close into explaining how my whole day had gone by... but hey shit happens... at least i got my car back... at least i got new wheels and hopefully a new stereo... and most importantly at least i'm not the one paying the bill! =P That was how my day turned out to be.. For all the shits i've gone through yesterday and the agonizing loss i felt for my CD collections... I'll be mourning your lost... The emptiness you've left behind... the silent moments without Prince, The Darkness, Van Halen, Jamie Cullum, Foo Fighters, Chris Botti etc... To those who have it right now... i don't think you would like most of my collections heheh... Well its just life i guess... Shit can happen anytime anywhere without any warning.. and i've handled it well i guess... Well i might fret a lil bit here and there but what's most important is that i've been through it and i've pulled free from it... right now anyway... til then i'll just hope for the best and hopefully my luck will turn around... I've always looked at the positive side of things... and yeah yesterday i think i handled it well... hey i didn't break down or anything marr lolz... To have lost a car and still be smiling about it and not to mention attending AIESEC episodes after that... Wow i amaze myself sometimes heheh... Once again... Thank you Family, Friends and Society... For making my day ;)

The Real World

Well I had my first share of being there during Career Path 08 in University of Malaya. Well going through companies, talking and even getting little insights of what to expect once i start working. To tell you the truth it freaks me out a little bit. Yes i know that it's competitive and all that but actually being there and talking those 'recruiters' are making me thinking like heck what the heck am i here in this world for! They're not recruiting people! They are basically scaring them off!!

I'm so used to being the easy going kinda guy and later on once i get into the corporate world will i be able to manage?? Having a major in Mechanical Engineering in the near future but will i be happy with life?? Will I get the chance to do what I like? WHAT THE HECK DO I LIKE DOING IN THE FIRST PLACE?? Am I going to be a somebody?? Am i willing to go all out to achieve something later on?? I guess it all depends on what you want in life that time during that PARTICULAR TIME. So now i'll sit back and enjoy the rest of my student life... Joining AIESEC and meeting people... growing my already booming NETWORK and going with the flow as i slowly merge into a corporate sector... for now i am alif... the idiot whom you guys love to hang out with =P Chilling out!~

Part-timing Saturday

Woke up at 7am! Had breakfast a lil bit and studied a bit here and there... i have two tests on monday and wednesday but i'm working from 10am-9pm during the weekends!! Geez imagine those student-working people.... Student in the day and baristas at night! Gosh i can't imagine how they could cope with anything what more enjoying life!! Thank god i'm only doing this for the weekends and only within a months time..


Students are jugglers... and AIESECers could be the king's bard in comparison.. AIESEC work, studies, assignments and sometimes work.. hey you gotta be great to be able to pull it off... just having been going through it for a day is enough to actually make me feel so bloody stressed up... with tests, assignments, projects, xchange etc coming along next week itself i'll be damned if i'm not alive by the end of the week... i can't go back home this weekend!! Can't do laundry!! =P heheh but hey work wasn't so bad if u don't mind standing almost the whole day... but heck imagine if i were to be working as a mascott i'll be earning rm160 a day!! And that's a HECK LOAD OF CASH where part-time jobs is concerned..
Nevermind the stinking costume or the huge clowny shoes and not being able to breathe in the god knows what thingy's... but hey... it's all fun man... had fun giving out balloons to lil kids and seeing their reaction when they saw kent, our mascot for the 2 hours... hahah part time jobs come to me very frequent lately... all thanks to varun... i don't know wether i should thank you or strangle you bro heheh ;)

V Day!

Well Happy Valentines Day though it might be a wee too late. Being someone not really the type to go all out for valentines day i tend to look at things in another perspective. Like some others say

"Everyday is a Valentines Day"

Well it might be just a way to wiggle through V-Day whilst saving up some cash.. but to some people they really mean it when they say that every day is a valentine's day.

..Should we just get our loved ones gifts on special occasions??
..Why can't we dine in a fancy restaurant any other day just to let your other half know that the sparks are still shining??
..What makes you think that you should say 'i love you' more times during valentines day??

Hey look at it this way... If you get gifts or bring your someone out on V-Day wouldn't things cost a lil bit more?? And wouldn't it be better when you just bring them out or get them gifts without no particular reason rather than giving them something when they are already expecting it??
I personally believe the secret to a great gift is the element of surprise...It doesnt matter if the things you get isn't all that great but as long as the timing is right then it'll give wonderous results ;)

For those couples out there, make everyday V-Day ayte.. Cherish the ones you have and live life like you've never before.

And for singles out there, hey V-Day or no V-day-happy hunting AND HAPPY SINGLE's AWARENESS DAY!! =P

Technology oh what the heck

Well what a 'great' start to the earth rat year i had... First off my handphone gives me all kinds of trouble.. Imagine someone calling you and they can't freaking hear what you're saying!! Heck if you ever wanna get a handphone don't you ever get a Nokia5300... It's great if you're the type to look after your phone and all that but after a few drops it'll get whacked!! Hey i remembered when back in the days when all it takes for a phone to do is answer calls and reply SMSes... Sadly those days are long gone.. with the coming of a whole new era for handphones every few years u'll basically get bored of a brand new phone you bought today in a few month's time!! I AM NOT those who really care about having hightech handphone gadgets and stuff like that but it's just so hard to get a simple decent handphone nowadays.... what with all the handphones having other unimaginable inclusions... so should I get a new handphone or should i just repair the old one?? heck why bother buying any when in 2months time it'll already be 'outdated' ... I guess i'll just continue using old handphone here til i get really annoyed with it then....

A beginning??

Well I'll be damned... After years of not blogging, will this be a beginning of a new blogging era... well for me at least =P due to the shift or rather the transition from doing pre-uni to a real uni life... time flies and as time descends upon us all we tend to ignore certain things bit by bit, pushing them aside til one day it just seem so alien to us... well that's what happened with my blogging 'career' if you wanna call it that... one minute i was posting up posts almost every week and then it slowly deteriorates til one day it was totally forgotten... But fret not my subjects! Coz i'm back n i'm whack as ever!!

So this is what I do... after a one whole week of CNY break (which was supposed to be spent studying mind you)... on the last sunday of the short hol... posting a beginning of what i've long left behind ;)